You know your pregnant when....

(cuz apparently I am a pro now!)

1. You wake up 3 times in the middle of the night to pee. (we have to start closing our window when it is raining!)

2. You already feel like you are on a feeding schedule with this baby-demanding little bugger needs food every hour!!! (not an easy task for a picky eater-i have recently discovered protein shakes=lifesaver)

3. You gag as you walk down the isle's at the grocery store

4. You cry during a tide commercial (have you seen it, it's so cute!)

5. Your husband say's how excited he is for daylight savings time and you say- "but too bad we lose an hour.." He reply's..."no" and you exclaim.."Yes...Fall Forward, Spring Back!!!" (at least we will blame this on the pregnancy)

6. You have to clean up your brothers throw up all over his bed and you call your mother at 1 in the morning bawling, and gagging asking what you should do!!?! (umm...clean it up dork!)

7. You sleep...a lot, shamefully a lot when you have no job.

8. You try to trade your window seat with the aisle seat on the airplane and the lady refuses...i warned you, (got up to go potty 3 times)

9. You get off the plane after not seeing your husband for 2 weeks and being stressed on the airplane lugging around your illegally large carry-on that weighs more than you....and you just cry as soon as you see him. (note to self, especially while pregnant do not fly without your husband or a mule horse. Or pack less)

10. You make your father in law go to the grocery store to pick up the one thing you feel like eating...and by the time he gets back and you have one bite you are revolted by it.

11. You make your husband sleep on the floor because you can't stand the smell of his dinner still lingering on his breath. (even after making him brush his teeth 3 times)

12. You haven't made a single meal in almost a month. I want to cut off my nose! The only time I can go in the kitchen is if a candle is burning.

13. You keep having to tug down on your bra all the time cuz it is starting to come up leaving part of you hanging out at the bottom. (if you know what I mean!) So annoying!

14. You go to your ward halloween party dressed like this:Get it?

So basically I am a JOY to be around these days. I have felt pretty sick, it's strange it goes in patterns. Like for 3 days straight i will be great, then for 5 days I will be miserable. So I guess I am not pulling out of it quite yet. I haven't felt like a functional wife in about a month. Erik has been more than wonderful doing everything!! BUT....I try really really really hard not to complain, and to laugh at myself. It feels so surreal. I can't believe this is for real. I am really pregnant, I am actually going to give birth to a Baby in May!!!! AHHHH!!! I am thrilled.

Another great moment was seeing our baby. We have now had the chance to see it twice. We go in again next week. (at 13 weeks) Here our are first pictures. I held still and saw the baby doing a little dance move-like the twist. I had been really impatient and annoying asking the Ultrasound lady lots of questions, mainly trying to calm my miscarriage fears. So when she saw the baby wiggling around she said "this baby is as impatient as you!" haha. Uh Oh...Erik is in for it! Here's our little squirt at 8 weeks! Aww isn't it the cutest thing you have every seen? With it's little stud arms and legs!! So cute! btw...I have a feeling it's a girl...so just thought i would put that out there so i can get credit if I am right and be mocked if I am wrong. We find that out in December.

And here are the start of the baby bump pics. I think I look normal. I dunno.4 1/2 weeks. (the day we found out!) Week 8.

I need to take my week 12 one soon. I will have Erik do that tonight. I feel like I have a little pooch sometimes...and a huge one after I eat (more than normal) Do you bloat more when pregnant? Anway-not much in the belly area but I have noticed a big difference in the chest area. (okay-don't go checking me out now!)

Oh also- people have asked when we found out. On Labor Day after our ward breakfast party I had been about 3 days late, by then every month I get ancy and take a pregnancy test. (thank goodness for the dollar store!) So we stopped at the dollar store on the way home. When we got home I went in the bathroom while Erik waited outside. I always take the test and set it on the counter, it is so hard for me not to watch it the WHOLE time it is processing. So I tried to look away...let it process, but I peeked...and thought I saw a faint second line...oh my gosh...oh my gosh...so i stared at it, read the box explaining that even if it was faint it still counted...I starting bawling! I ran out of the bathroom, bawling and of course Erik doesn't know what that means...and I can't even speak I am crying so hard...the only thing I can get out of my mouth is "There's 2 lines!" He runs in to look and he comes out crying. We just hug and cry and laugh and smile....It seriously was the greatest feeling in the world. Then we immediately knelt down and said a family prayer, thanking our Heavenly Father for this tremendous blessing. Then the next few weeks were extremely difficult as i doubted and was overcome with fear of miscarriage that it ruled my life. I couldn't even enjoy being pregnant. But after blessings from Erik and praying I felt comforted and knew I had to be positive and happy, and everything would be okay. The Evidence

Now I do want to say this. I have been waiting over 2 years to blog about all this stuff. And during that time I have read thousands (it felt like) of other peoples blogs talking about there pregnancies and babies. I usually dealt with it pretty well. But, I understand there are those that it is more difficult for, who are struggling to get pregnant. So I want to be sensitive to those, yet at the same time I feel like it's my time and my turn to enjoy this. So this is my blog and I will write my experiences and feelings but I do want to say that Erik and I continue to pray every day for those of you trying to get pregnant. And I know how hard it is, and how devastating and frustrating it is, but I promise you too will have the joys of getting a positive test and the joys of being a mother. I know the Lord will bless you. I know hindsight is so much easier, and we all know I wasn't a peach about it all the time either, it is tough. But hang in there. I know this is the time I was meant to have this child. And the struggle just makes it that much sweeter. Remember as President Uchtdorf's talk said "the Lord remembered Rachel, and he will remember you." I know that is true. Trust in the Lord, he knows what he is doing, and be patient. It will happen.

p.s. for those who are wondering also, i found a great doctor, thanks to Sara and Brittney's suggestions (im so sneaky you probably don't even remember!) I am seeing Dr. Mahoney, and I LOVE her! So thanks girls!

p.p.s- im freakin out about the swine flu...i haven't got the shot yet-Im working on it. Any thoughts? Erik is like "at least you don't really come in contact with anyone!" thanks sweetie (yes i sit in my house all day-usually in my robe, watching our 2 channels of t.v.) But as many have told me...i should enjoy it while i can..right?